Eccentricity

She is unconventional .You would say ... Oh really !! But yeah she is atleast to me i've just realized it the past year and the horrible thing is that its the same thought as it was when i wished not to have her in my room at the first place. I knew that time that she is not my cup of tea .. instead she is a vodka shot (N i mean it literally) ..But some how with all god grace upon me i became a loose nut n hang around for may be two and half year .
We were friends (eventually) .. but my position depleted with every wrong step i took with her .. I commit that it was shear for fun but gradually it became antisocial (sort of not completely but yeah it was not social i would say). So from being the BFFs (yes we were ) now we happen to be just two ppl who know about each other .

Now her eccentricity haunts me . i don't like to be seen with her . I can't understand her egoistic and egotistic talks anymore but there was a time when i was not that much irritated by them, i wont say i enjoyed it all but it was tolerable.hmm...
But it was a mistake to join her little too psychotic ideas .
Now my conscience is back (Thanks to my parents). i don't know what i should tell ppl when they ask me "U were friends with her?" ... should i say "yeah i was u'hv a problem with that" .. Or just say "yeah i was all human make mistakes "..

God knows how bad i miss her sometimes but she is half-minded talking tom cat she doesn't even have the nerves to understand her faults .
But life is this way never perfect too dicey... N ppl live into scenarios of dilemma ... i took the wrong decision there i admit N i am gonna live in guilt that i broke promises i'd committed to her as a friend .. let it be in Hindi we have this proverb "raat gyi baat gyi " i
Hell to the past life now i am way much happy in my solitude (i am not a extrovert lately ) .