its time to go back to the college its the most destructive place I've been in my 20 year long life (well I've not been to too many places but still ) . its the most boring deadly burning hot (literally) gross corrupted and full of dangerous creatures and vicious insect hopeless place in India.
Still i can't escape ... i really curse for the moment when i said yes to go there i ruined my own life .
Most of my deserving and not so deserving friends (some of them really had luck working which always lack for me ) are placed in very good company and i couldn't make that far . It really hurts me alot since November i am fighting my way back but its not been a single day that i don't think about this failure . Before this year i used to think that i have plenty of good friends two best friends but now it happens to be all wrong
I've got no one ... no one to talk , no one who could understand what i am going through above all this i've to go back to college and see their happy faces and placed butts .(Sorry for not so social language but i don't feel really good about them so ) . Now i hate my friends because they ignore me . its makes me laugh that i even once thought that friendship is a real thing its just a time pass activity which ppl do to get busy when they are not doing their so called important study .
I thought that lying was not a good thing at least i was following my parents teaching but everybody out there lies most of time . i should also start doing this .
Right now i don't see any future because i am unable to think straight i need that faith that i can do it but somehow i can't get over . i am very optimistic in times but now its hard to roll towards it . i really hope with my all heart that 2013 brings me success that i deserve and i need it badly .. I've also stopped praying before it all happened i use to say thank you for everything he has given me . its a very bad time ..
i read it somewhere that if u are going through hell ,,,, them keep going ... that's the attitude people have this days no empathy at all .. i was stupid that i cared this much ...it hurts to even hear their names... i remember i told my friend that i wish to go on a island where i cn't hear their names and live without phone and Facebook ... leaving both of them its a very crucial task trust me i m getting this much sick of greedy and snobbish ppl around me .
Still i can't escape ... i really curse for the moment when i said yes to go there i ruined my own life .
Most of my deserving and not so deserving friends (some of them really had luck working which always lack for me ) are placed in very good company and i couldn't make that far . It really hurts me alot since November i am fighting my way back but its not been a single day that i don't think about this failure . Before this year i used to think that i have plenty of good friends two best friends but now it happens to be all wrong
I've got no one ... no one to talk , no one who could understand what i am going through above all this i've to go back to college and see their happy faces and placed butts .(Sorry for not so social language but i don't feel really good about them so ) . Now i hate my friends because they ignore me . its makes me laugh that i even once thought that friendship is a real thing its just a time pass activity which ppl do to get busy when they are not doing their so called important study .
I thought that lying was not a good thing at least i was following my parents teaching but everybody out there lies most of time . i should also start doing this .
i read it somewhere that if u are going through hell ,,,, them keep going ... that's the attitude people have this days no empathy at all .. i was stupid that i cared this much ...it hurts to even hear their names... i remember i told my friend that i wish to go on a island where i cn't hear their names and live without phone and Facebook ... leaving both of them its a very crucial task trust me i m getting this much sick of greedy and snobbish ppl around me .
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