Alive :)

I opened my FB account and I saw one of my best friend’s post which said that how much she is missing hostel. I really wanted to comment that I blessed that I am still not is that missing you a lot phase. Sometimes it really feels pathetic watching going so emotional about a place or their friends but the irony is this that it happens with e also but the difference is everything happens a little slow to me even the miss u fever can’t beat it .The funny part is that I am ten times more emotional than my friends, I just become a cry baby most of the times. I seriously want my crying habit to collapse like WTC. America may not like that but I will dearly welcome the crashing plain into my cry emotion. I’ve read somewhere that how well and affirmatively you express your emotions shows your mental health and according to it I am really healthy and well.. in this case I want to be a patient I don’t want to express my anger (when I am angry either I want to throw things and break them or just cry the rage out ..) this is something I would like to eliminate .

Okay this is too much now … I have another thing to say … you guys remember all your first things ..First time you went to a theme park …  bicycle …first ride … first time of new school(not always good but still) …first time of stage that rush .. First time of hearing those claps … first time of winning anything(and how much you liked it that losing is not an option anymore )… first bedtime story ….. First good book … first best friend(in my case I have had a number of them )…ur just the first friend … the first time you drove something all by your own .. the feeling of being adult and mature ..independent …there are a lot of these  … and I am sure that most of them are common …   some may have experienced it … yet other are still waiting some of them to happen … like first successful love relation … or a true friend …. There are also many people who spend all their life waiting for “ the love and the best buddy”  … what can we say … it’s just destiny … I just wish everyone finds what they really looking for …. I once knew what I wanted … and also worked for it … but it is hard to follow the right way always … sometimes you choose other soothing ways… but you should realize that if you didn’t worked for you dream and ambition no one else gives a damn …. So if you haven’t found your dream yet keep searching for it .. and if you have found it keep working for it …  in the end you may accomplish it or at least you’ll have a satisfaction of living for what you wanted … … so you guys out there should keep your head high and eyes open because you don’t wanna miss anything ….may that anything is something you always wanted …  xoxo

LOVE  …

XXX